Bingo! Cutting is another..outlit. There, the people who don't care enough to understand, and are trying to yell or use psychology, can stick that somewhere lovely. Oh wait! Don't! It's a form of selfharm, we should all die before we live because living is self harming! Ahhhhh! *note: Sarcasm in last long line.*
You know, cutting is a terrible way to express pain. And you aren't just hurting yourself for a distraction, you're hurting every single person who actually gives a fuck about you. I'm so sick of my friends either walking up to me and showing me fresh cuts on their wrists. Or me accidentally getting a glimpse of scars that they were trying to hide. Therapy is far better than self harm. And I don't even like therapy, but you know, talking out your issues, going to get help from people in power, is better than harming yourself and torturing your friends and family.
And don't tell me I don't understand. Because I've been to some dark places when it comes to hurting badly emotionally. But I never hurt myself because even in my darkest times I realized that one or two people still cared and I couldn't hurt them by watching me destroy myself.
Do you know how hard it is to not cry when you have a friend walk up to you all broken, eyes on the floor, her arms covered and hear her tell you "I'm sorry... I tried so hard to stop, but I couldn't." Because she's cutting again. Because it's an addiction. Do you know how it feels to bring antibiotic cream and band aids to school because your friend is too ashamed to ask her parents for help when her cuts are infected again?
Or how helpless you feel when you catch a glimpse of another friend's thigh and see a checker board pattern oh so carefully carved in because she can't deal with her emotionally abusive boyfriend any other way. She can't fucking leave him because she loves him. And he's destroying her, and she's helping him. It hurts.
And you're saying I don't care? BULL SHIT. I do care. If I didn't care, I wouldn't be telling them to get away from the causes of their pain. I wouldn't' be taking care of them when they let me. I wouldn't' be tearing my heart apart worrying about them. Okay?
Geez. In the first comment, before you commented, I even said ' the people who don't care enough to understand, and are trying to yell or use psychology '. NOT the friends. I'm talking about the people, well like I said. Anyone else, don't freaken be offended by my comment! It wasn't meant for you!
If they cried and wanted to talk to you, what would you do? Why is cutting destroying yourself? Nope the only cutter I know is myself and the only person who figured out what the cuts are saw them for the second last time. Anyone else glanced at them and looked away. That sucks. A lot. Is there some way that she can leave him? Okay, in my defense I was referring to the people trying to cart others off to psych wards, or telling people they're complete idiots and then walking away from them. I wasn't referring to, after reading what you're doing, You. I'm not saying cutting is the Best way, but it is A way, and Some people can control it. In my experience, over here in my stupid corner, no one fucking cares if you bleed and if you do, you damn well better go to a psychiatrist and get drugs because No One wants to help you. No One would care enough to bring me in bandaids, okay?! That's what I meant. That's it. Those are the people, not you, because they don't care about Why you're doing it, all they see is a cut and then they call you and idiot. I was pretty angry when I wrote that comment, I'm a little sick of people walking away because I Suck at hiding Anything. Yet my anorexic friend, I'm the one who tells her she's pretty. My friend who throws himself off trees, I'm the one who tells him he's strong and he doesn't have to do that. So may you please tell me why they won't call me back and why they hate me so much when I found a razor?
I talk to them, I don't know how to fix it and I would if I could but I try to be there for them. If only so someone will listen.
You don't get it, do you? People aren't careful when they cut, they don't care about themselves that much. I know people who only cut because they can't get up the nerve to kill themselves. So yeah, they are destroying themselves, they could very easily cut too deep and not realize and start bleeding out then not know what to do. Or be too ashamed or embarrassed to get help. How is endangering your life not destructive?
I'm sorry people don't try to help you, but do you ever think they are frightened and don't know how to handle it? Or perhaps they are trying to protect themselves because they aren't strong enough. Unfortunately, people aren't always able to make the good choice, and instead they take the choice best for them. And it'd be nice it they were able to step up, but they don't have to and they could burn themselves out taking care of everyone else. And that's terrible too.
And I personally think people who are cutting or doing anything else destructive to deal with pain need to go to therapy for their problems so they can talk through them and find a new solution other than harming yourself. You don't need to be drugged up in most cases, but you need to talk to a professional that can help you understand how you're feeling and give you mental tools to work through your problems.
And I wish you had a friend who was both willing and capable of helping you, but even if you don't, that doesn't mean you can't find a better way to deal with them. And not everyone who is anorexic needs to be told they're pretty, it's not always about looks as it is about control. You can choose if and when you eat, and to prove to herself that she has some control she chooses not to eat. It's not that in every case, but in some it is and I don't know her exact problem, but I'm just saying an alternative to her doing it to feel pretty. As for your friend throwing himself off trees, that isn't safe, is he doing it for thrill seeking? I don't really understand a whole lot about stuff like this, but both of those are dangerous, and they need to find other ways to face their problems, to make themselves feel in control or pretty or alive or whatever they're trying to feel through the activities.
And as for why they aren't trying to be supportive of you in return, I can't honestly say, but my best guess is they may be relying on you for strength and it scares them when you are going down a destructive path similar to theirs. And that's not fair to you, but that's just my guess.
When I tell someone they need to go to therapy, I'm not saying it in a mean way like I don't care, I'm saying it because I do care, I don't want to see them falling apart and I know I'm not capable of fixing their problems, but maybe a professional could help them find the tools in themselves to deal with their problems. You know what I'm trying to say?